Aslam o Alikum 

i dont know posting here is proper or not but May be sharing with you people i got some solution to the problem. i define here all my conditions and symptoms so please guide me. i try my best to use a good communication language sorry if i post some thing wrong.

First of all i give you little of my background. i am an intelligent worker related to computer field. having a good job and career. i am handsome smart whtever you can fit in a good person.

The Real Problem:

The real problem i got is that i stuck in to hell of negetive things. its my misfourtune that i take a bad envoirment of society and people. from childhood from the age of 13 i saw some negetive material or you can say nude material due to the kindness of some friends. i was not much concious and that rubish stuff get in to my mind. With time to time due to many problems or factors i get involved in seeing negetive things. as on Cable, Internet, Media so and so. These things are part of my envoirment...in home i am littel my big brothers get the negetive media like cable and internet and i got slip due to my weakness.

any how i got addiction to see negetive and nude things. Till to the 8th class i dont understand whts wrong in that. but then i realize i leave all the negetive things. and 6 Years i dont do any negetive things and i become pious. Then suddenly my father passed away.... and i am attached with some one and she leaves me due to the factor that i am poor. i got so much destructed from inner self and become so much weak menally. i become depression patient. time to time i become normal but i got so much mental weakness that now i cannot stop my self to doing wrong stuff. i am totally fail to controlling my self.

12-18 i see wrong stuff nude stuff due to misfortune and i do and waste my energy in Masturbation.

Then there is a pause in 18-22 and i dont do any thing wrong totally finshed.

But after my father death and all friends leaving i hardly able to control my self.

i cannot stop my self to avoid seeing wrong and doing masterbution. i am very fed up. i stop one way the other way of negetive things opens for me. i leave using comptuer then the girls in my office try to disturb me i hardly get rid from them. some times my brothers bother me by taking wrong stuff. i dont think i can leave all the hell and rubish stuff. From last one year i am getting addict to saw wrong stuff and masterbuate. i do twice a week oftenly on weekend when i dont have any body to talk negetive things prevails on my mind and disturb me and i dont able to stop my self. the main problem is mentally i am week i cannot control on myself in alonness mostly to do wrong or when there are lot of negetive things around me. what the things i need to answer from you is

i do a lot of masturbation i dont know wht exactly it effects are on my body? doctors says it does not harm and other says it harms. i dont know how much it cost and loss to me. excess of every thing is bad and i know it has some negetive effect on me at the end. the loss happen i want to make its recovery.

The problem i get till now is:

1-dont able to take mental self control to resist not doing wrong.

2- When i see some nude material i got drops.

3-i feel very thinness in my seman as before in the past.

4-i got twice in a week or once in a week to do some negetive activity misfourtunely.

5- lastly i dont know what problems i get after married.

i want my self to be a tough timer and work hard for many things for my country and religion. but this hell rubish get my addiction how i get rid from it.

some times i struggle and control over two weeks three weeks but again some problem happen and all progress gone to zero. i had loss of consistent mind.

so guide me about medical loss and recovery. i can do take any kind of natural diet costly to costly i dont have finincial problem. what masterbution actulley cost you both health wise and religion wise. 

Alhamdoilliah i dont have any single habit else this. if you solve my this problem i will be very thankful to you. i had a good career working job, Alhamdoillah i pray. when ever i do bad i beg and ask forgiveness from God. but again loss my temper.

if some body here give me personal contact for guidness i shall be thankful to that person.

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May Allah Bless you All.....

i am very sorry i may dont use open words as here but to get guidness i use.