Hello, My problem starts when i was 14 and a student of 8th grade and lived in village. I used to go for study from our neighbour (i used to call her baji). She used to kiss me when i do better but i was not aware of sex at that time. One day when i went for study, there was another women sitting with her. That day, it was not limited to kiss. they forced me to sex. It was really dreadful for me. Then I was blackmailed by them for sex every time they forced me and soon another women joined them. I was so scared that couldn't tell anyone. it continued till my martic. Then I went to Isb. for college. Then i came out of their control. here i met a girl who was a student of QAU. for the first time in my life, i found what is love and how much pleasureful sex is. But she betrayed me. I was so shocked that I hated every woman. then one of my friends told me to get revenge from her. so i somehow managed to get her back to me for some discussion at my residence in isb (bachelor's home). I forced her from her back side. Her pain and cry gave me pleasure. Then I also did same with those three in village. I took my revenge, but got some negative things. I hate woman and got bad habit of sex from their back hole. I started datting girls and woman, enjoy sex with them and when my heart filled with them and want to leave, do the bad from their back side. I never realized what i am doing. Now I am twenty-six and work in a multinational company.  Last week i did same with one of my colleagues (married one) after two months of pleasureful sex with her.  She wept badly and while leaving said "You are sick" and for the first time in my life, i also felt the same. Am I? I analyzed my self, no doubt that i still hate women. But now i feel i am also not lovable. I don't know what to do. Please help me.

Agreed to all.

Yes you need a psychiatric review.

What happened in your past when you were a child doesn't put blame on you since at that time you were innocent and didn't know about any thing of sex. You would be not considered offender.

A girl has betrayed with you is really shocking but it doesn't mean that you keep on taking revange with those women who are innocent. Not only revange but you would perform intercourse in vagina and as well as in anus. You have to think over that as well, is that justified?

Many people are there in this world who are betrayed? Whether they do like you?